Contemplating

What to do next. It’s been years, so many years where I have felt like this and to have it labeled makes me uneasy. I don’t really know what to do with all the emotions I’m feeling right now. I continue to just be exhausted. Tired of all the thinking and the reviewing of my life, past and present. It’s taking over every aspect of my life right now and I’m really frustrated. I know this sounds like a pity party for one; but really it’s not. I’m just getting my feelings out there so that hopefully I can let them go. I know I’m not in a good place right now in my head and I have to release it or it will just stay in there until it boils over.

So there, it’s out. I’m going to do what I need to do to get myself through this dark tunnel that I’m in right now. The light is faint but I know it’s down there. I just have to keep working on it until I reach it.