It came so fast

At first it was months away, then weeks, now it's right around the corner. I can't sleep, to many thoughts running around inside my head. I'm downstairs tapping away on my computer but I know he's up there. Sleeping, snoring away until he wakes up to enjoy his last day off in the morning. There's a comfort that comes over me knowing that I can walk up there right now and wrap my arms around him. That comfort will be gone soon. My heart has been on protective mode. Not wanting to admit I'm going to miss him so much. We had a bbq this past weekend and family said their good-byes. He spent some quality time with the kids this week. I think even our youngest knows something is going on. Such a young mind and she comprehends the tension so well.
I always say, I'm ready. I'm ready for the challenges that I know will come up while he's gone. The ones I'll have to tackle on my own. Every time he leaves, it's exciting and scary as hell all wrapped into one. So many different feelings my mind, my heart is dealing with right now. I don't have enough time to sort them all out right now so I'll pack them away and deal with them once he's gone.