Moments of Joy

Merriam-Webster definition ~
Main Entry: 1joy
Pronunciation: 'joiFunction: noun1 a: the emotion evoked by well-being, success, or good fortune or by the prospect of possessing what one desires: DELIGHT b: the expression or exhibition of such emotion: GAIETY2: a state of happiness or felicity: BLISS3: a source or cause of delight

True joy. Do we all have it? I mean really. Other then the obvious which is our family and friends. What gives you joy?
It’s so funny because I was thinking about this the other day and it just happened to be the subject of the morning radio show I listen to today. Share your moments of joy. Excluding the obvious.
I was thinking and other then the obvious I couldn’t come up with anything. What does that say about me?
I’m not ungrateful for the things, the people I have in my life. I know I am truly blessed. But really my joy, my true joy comes from my kids, my grandbaby, my hubby, my family and friends. These budding relationships I have with each and every one of these people.
Is that enough? Should I be searching for more? Or is it something within myself that’s holding me back from experiencing life the way it should be?
This seemed like such a simple question until the boundaries for the answer were set.
Hmm... I don’t know.

hand in hand

The poet in my soul

fighting from within

my inner-self struggling

to be free

wanting you to understand

the love

needing you to understand

my complexities

I’m not a simple creature

tied neatly in a bow

the positive

the negative

this is me

who I am

who I will become

only the future can tell

to be part of that

to walk hand in hand

to share

my love

my desire

my hopes

my dreams

my life

Words escape me....

sometimes they just do. I have all these feelings pent up inside and there's no way of expressing them. It gets so frustrating at times. I try to say something and either I don't convey it right or it gets misunderstood. All I know is this. I'm not letting my past define who I am today. But I can't forget it either. It is part of me, it helped mold the person I am. My mistakes, my triumphs; all of them rolled up into one. This woman sitting here tapping away at the keyboard. This is me.

Memorial Day

Can u believe I didn't post this? Something so important and I left it in my draft box. I re-read it. Something I told myself I would never do while writing this blog. I did what I thought I would. Deleted it and started again. So here we go.

A day like Memorial Day holds such significance I feel as though you need to find the right words. Then I think and I don’t find those words. What can you really say about those that gave up so much, gave up everything for our freedom? The freedom so many of us take for granted. Think about it. How many people do you think really give it any thought throughout their day? Driving down the road with fast food places that line the street; standing in that line at the grocery store. How about when they go renew their drivers license or drop their kids off at school. Do we all realize just how lucky we are; that we have the freedom to do those things on a daily basis. Who we have to say thank you to for making sure we keep those rights. Our military, past and present; they all took a part in keeping our freedom alive. Some gave the ultimate sacrifice. Saying goodbye to their loved ones not knowing it would be the last time they ever saw their faces. It just seems like they should have more then a day. A day where most people plan barbeques and don’t even stop to reflect as to the reason why they have that day off from work, or school. A day, one day just doesn’t seem like enough. Thank you just doesn’t seem like enough. But as simple as those words are; they hold so much meaning to those that have served with pride. Thank you to servicemen past and present for making that sacrifice, facing unknown enemies with courage. Because of you we continue to be free.