Do Over...

In life we travel down roads, make decisions, choices. If you had a chance for a do over, would you take it? I know the life we have led makes us who we are; so does wanting to go back and do some things differently mean we’re not happy with the people we turned out to be?

Something worth fighting for...

I’m sure we all have something, someone in our lives that we would not hesitate to fight for. But when push comes to shove do you know what/who those things, those people are? And truly; would you do it? Would you put yourself out there to the universe and say, “This to me is something worth fighting for”. Knowing that you might experience pain. Knowing that you may figure out things about yourself, about that other person that you don’t want to know. Those things we want to keep hidden in that little corner of ourselves. You know that corner within us. We all have them. The place where those random thoughts those random actions that we’ll never touch exist. Do we fight knowing that in the end it may just be a losing battle or do we hope beyond all hope that it will turn out the way we always dreamed it would be?

Relationships are such fragile things to begin with. But really should they be? They should be strong enough to stand the test of time, the cracks of everyday life.
When life get’s tough, Love must get tougher. The will to fight must get stronger.

I think in all of our lives we wish for pretty much the same things. The test is when we get those things how far are we willing to go to make sure we never lose them?

One question still presents itself. When should the will to fight give in to the reality that you should move on?

Fear of the unknown...

Fear of making the wrong decision. There are just so many things going through my mind right now. I have a question. To be in love? Not in the simple sense but the down and dirty real life type of love. By any definition that is to mean having those feelings for someone where your heart feels like it’s going to beat right out of your chest. Where you feel like through all of life’s madness you still can find comfort, protection from that one person no matter what life is throwing at you. It’s that feeling that this person gives you that no one else in the world can come close to. You only feel like that when you’re in the presence of that person, that person who you know you want to spend the rest of your life with. Through the good times, the bad times and all those times in between. My mind is in shambles right now trying to piece together where that feeling is. Or is this just a progression relationships go through; where things just start to be. I don’t know what’s going on. All I know is this has to be figured out. In life we all strive to be happy. To attain that true happiness that everyone talks about. It’s not to much to ask, is it?

I ask myself how I got to this place of quandary and honestly all I can say is that it’s a ton of little things. Those little things that when pieced together seem to just break that fragile organ known as my heart.